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You Can Play For A Thousand People And Still Feel Completely Alone

This is why I built my online community, The Mental Musician Band. A place for musicians to go whenever they need it, so they don't feel alone

Brian Zhang

Community

Jul 22, 2026

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3 min read

After 4 years, I have finally built a community where musicians can feel supported

A place where musicians can finally come together, have honest conversations about mental health, and remind each other we're not alone

Brian Zhang

Mental Health Support

The REAL conversation we must have in music today...and it has nothing to do with AI, streaming, or selling your soul to the algorithm

Jul 1, 2026

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12 min read

The REAL conversation we must have in music today...and it has nothing to do with AI, streaming, or selling your soul to the algorithm

The conversation with my teacher that made me feel seen — and finally gave me permission to start taking care of myself

Brian Zhang

Stories

The hardest part about depression wasn't admitting I needed help. It was learning how to talk about it.

Jun 17, 2026

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5 min read

The hardest part about depression wasn't admitting I needed help. It was learning how to talk about it.

And it's why I decided to open up about it, because I needed to give myself permission to start getting better.

Brian Zhang

Reflections on Mental Health

The Price I Paid for Ignoring My Mental Health

Jun 4, 2026

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7 min read

The Price I Paid for Ignoring My Mental Health

I put music before my health for over a decade. I'm lucky to still be here to tell the story.

Brian Zhang

Family

May 7, 2026

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9 min read

A story to remind you you’re not alone

Even when it feels like music is all you have

Brian Zhang

Stories

The Last Time I Played Guitar for My Grandma

Apr 16, 2026

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8 min read

The Last Time I Played Guitar for My Grandma

For my Po Po and Nai Nai — on grief, guilt, and learning how to say goodbye

Brian Zhang

Stories

Apr 2, 2026

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17 min read

I’m okay with being a failed musician.

But it took me years to accept that.

Brian Zhang

Reflections on Mental Health

Being a Musician Hurt Me More Than I’d Care to Admit

Mar 18, 2026

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16 min read

Being a Musician Hurt Me More Than I’d Care to Admit

So this is me finally being honest with you and with myself

Brian Zhang

Stories

For 15 minutes, I Was A Rockstar At Philadelphia Airport

Mar 5, 2026

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12 min read

For 15 minutes, I Was A Rockstar At Philadelphia Airport

Somewhere between a cancelled flight and a crowd of strangers, I found a reason to keep going

Brian Zhang

Family

Feb 18, 2026

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14 min read

How I Became a Master at Hiding My Pain

But as I say goodbye to my Grandma, I realise I'm not as alone as I thought.

Brian Zhang

Mental Health Support

Jan 24, 2026

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7 min read

Therapy isn't so scary after all

How changing my approach to therapy saved my mental health...and life

Brian Zhang

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You Can Play For A Thousand People And Still Feel Completely Alone

After 4 years, I have finally built a community where musicians can feel supported

The REAL conversation we must have in music today...and it has nothing to do with AI, streaming, or selling your soul to the algorithm

The hardest part about depression wasn't admitting I needed help. It was learning how to talk about it.

The Price I Paid for Ignoring My Mental Health

A story to remind you you’re not alone

The Last Time I Played Guitar for My Grandma

I’m okay with being a failed musician.

Being a Musician Hurt Me More Than I’d Care to Admit

For 15 minutes, I Was A Rockstar At Philadelphia Airport

How I Became a Master at Hiding My Pain

Therapy isn't so scary after all

The Mental Musician

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